Miss Insyirah.

Stupid Valentine's Day

2012-02-14T07:53:00.000-08:00

Damn.

I've been saying this all day long.

I mean, there's not even a channel on Astro that has nothing to do with Valentine's Day.

Well, except for oasis maybe.

Thank God for hindustan.

Yes, hindustan has more love and romance than any other movies but bollywood movies has always been like that, and so that's why I didn't feel anything about watching the movies.

There's dance and joy and happiness and drama all in a movie.

Awesome!

I personally love Kareena Kapoor though.

She just has this thing about her you know?

I mean, I admit she's not the most beautiful actress out there.

But the way she brings herself and the confidence level that she has.

It makes her stands out and naturally, more beautiful than any other actress.

I love the fact that she's not humble of her achievements.

She has struggled and worked hard to get where she is now and she's not sorry for it.

It just shows that she's real.

And I like real.

I just wished she dated a younger guy.

I mean, saif ali khan bebo? C'mon you could do a lot better than that.

Not that I have anything against Saif, I just think he's too old for Kareena.

I mean, of course, I preferred her with Shahid Kapoor. Even Imran Khan looks good with her!

Why does she have to choose Saif?

Isn't it just weird??

Saif used to be Kareena's sister other half on-screen.

And now he's Karisma's sister's other half.

Ok, ok It's like this.

Imagine you dated a guy back when you just got out of high school.

And now you're like 30 and the guy you dated back in high school is dating your younger sister who's just entering college.

I mean, weird right??

But they say love knows no boundaries huh?

Even age I guess?

Well, as long as you're happy Kareena, I have nothing more to say. ^^

I just can't wait to watch her latest movie!!!

Ek Main Aur Ekk Tu

Her latest movie with Imran Khan. ^^

Ek Main Aur Ekk TU!

See?? Don't they just look so cute together??

Love Is In The Air. And Yeah, I Kinda Hate It.

2012-02-10T08:53:00.000-08:00

So Valentine's Day is just around the corner.
Because of that Stupid Day, all tv programmes are about love.
Like seriously!

It's not that I hate romantic movies.
Just that, does everything has to be about love and romance??

Why can't anybody remember it's also SAD day.
Ehem ehem
Single Awareness Day?

Like why can't they show tv programmes that's related to SAD day.
Seriously dude!

But I have to admit
Not all love are about romance between a boy and a girl.
There are other types of love.

You guys know that show iCarly right?
Well yeah, I'm not really a fan of that show but I'd like to highlight one of the characters here.
He is Carly's brother, known as Spencer.

You know, it'd be really cool to have a brother like him.
My younger sibs like to watch the show, so I watch along
And I saw how Spencer's very supportive of his sister no matter what she does.
And I kinda want a brother like him.

Watch a couple of iCarly shows and you'll knw what I mean

Ok I don't even know why I'm suddenly talking about iCarly now...
ugh...it just shows how boring my life is right now huh??
DAMN.

I Never Thought It'd Be This Way

2012-02-09T07:14:00.000-08:00

So today is one out of my two bestfriends' bday.

Nadia Zuraida's.

Nadia is has been my bestfriend since I entered high school.

Which meant we started being best friends when we were both just thirteen years old.

And Alhamdullilah, we're still best friends till now.

Five years huh? Lol

I moved during my third year of high school.

That's when I met Ammera Hadi, my other best friend.

You see, after I moved, I couldn't exactly spend quality time with Nadia since we were both busy living our lives.

Form 3, we were busy with PMRs,

Form 4, I entered boarding school,

Form 5, well, SPM of course.

Now....after SPM...

She's busy studying...while me??

Well, with my driving classes and jobs...i can't exactly contact her all the time can i?

Fortunately, today was her birthday.

So I called her.

And you know what?

I'm glad i did.

It cleared up all the things I needed to with her.

I feel so much better now.

Thanks Nadia ^^

And again, Happy BDAY!

Just~

2012-02-08T03:19:00.000-08:00

Being Mentally Unstable.

It's Not Dangerous Right?

Another Dramionie Fan!

2012-02-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

Wow after all these years?
I can't believe I actually found one.
And this is none other than Hajar herself!

I started reading Dramionie when I was thirteen years old.

It was my sister who introduced it to me back then.

I got so addicted to it that I read it everyday till the next morning.

I grown out of it during my pmr year since I got no time to read it anymore.

But after reading hajar's blog, the urge to dive back in the forbidden love story came back to me.

So now here I am, reading Dramionie again. ^^

Oh by the way Hajar, other than Fanfics.

There are also fanvids of Dramionie.

It's like fanfic, only it's in video form and more realistic I guess.

Not all of them are good though, but there are some really great ones.

You just have to look for them. ^^

I''l give you one. This video was what made me like the song that they used for the video.

Try searching for "glittering clouds dramionie"

The song glittering clouds is one of my favourite songs when I was so into dramionie.

If you listen carefully to the lyrics, it suits their forbidden romance very much!

I Would Love To Be That Person.

2012-02-03T15:29:00.000-08:00

I would love to be that person

Who doesn't fall in love easily

Who doesn't trust someone easily

Who doesn't cry easily

Who isn't so vulnerable

Who isn't weak

I always thought I was strong.
The kind of person who doesn't fall for tricks easily.
Yet now I so feel the opposite way.

Crap, what is wrong with me these days??
I'm feeling all the wrong things at all the wrong times.

A little Bit Of Inspiration. That's All I Need.

2012-02-01T06:54:00.000-08:00

Sigh.

I'm kind of really bumped out right now.

My Kaizen story is kinda hanging.

I can't find any inspiration to continue it.

I just can't find myself to get on the laptop and continue the story.

I just don't

I just need a little bit of inspiration.

But where can i find it??

Debate. I Miss You. :(

2012-01-30T08:36:00.000-08:00

So I went on Facebook today and the first thing I saw was Kak Hanan's latest status.

She and her team won the East Coast Debating Cup.

You see...debating is not something easy.

It's not something that you can do in a matter of days like public speaking.

Debating is serious business people.

Well for me at least.

So winning something like this is a very big thing.

Not everyone can be debaters. Good ones anyway.

I debated alongside Kak Hanan when I was form 4 for MRSM's se-Malaysia Language Week in the debate category of course.

So I know how good she was as a debater.

And she is! Very good in fact.

I pity her for having teammates that weren't so much of a help a.k.a me, naqib and adib.

Well what do you expect??

It was the first time the three of us ever entered a debate competition as big as this.

And to make it worse.

The debate was UIA style bro!!

Meaning they will only give the motion thirty minutes before the debate start.

So you can't actually prepare anything.

you have to think of stuff right there and then.

So the fact that we won three out of six rounds that year, I consider it as a very big accomplishment

Seeing as it was my first time in debate. and not just any debate. UIA debate.

And I also got Best Speaker for two rounds! super cool for a first year debater!

But we couldn't have done all that without kak hanan. ^^

(Sigh...kak hanan! I miss language week!)

Second year...we didn't have kak hanan.

But that's ok.I got the hang of debate now and we have diana!

so the brainstorming isn't too hard as diana was there.

She brainstormed while I become the one who would deliver it. Hihi.

We only won two out of six rounds last year but that's ok.

We had much more fun last year than the year before that.

And what's even more awesome??

My rank in the debater's ranks in 2010 was 63 put 200+ debaters.

2011??

I rank seventeen out of 200+ debaters!

Really, i was awestruck.

My point here is...i miss debate.

I miss the pressure, the stress that i feel all under thirty minutes.

the chills before going into the room after the madam speaker called us

The relief felt after I finished my reply speech.

The excruciating waiting moments outside while the judges delibrate who wins.

Sigh.

I miss debate.

Like The Best Friend I Never Had.

2012-01-29T07:52:00.000-08:00

i don't like you and i should never trust you again as a friend.

When you were having the time your of your life...you completely forgot about me..

.and when you were facing one of your worst moments.

.you came back saying how sorry you were for not appreciating me and now that you're happy again.

..you left me all alone again

. What am i?

A toy?

I hate you and i'll never trust you again.

I can't believe i thought you were my best friend.

And no...it's not you mera. Don't worry ^^

Just when I thought you really had change for the better and finally, really appreciated me as a friend.

You abandoned me.

Again.

Yeah, now I'll never be close to you again.

Ok so I feel lonely alright?

anybody got a problem??

I learn that we grow up.

2012-01-27T08:10:00.000-08:00

You know.

One thing I learned about humans is that we are all the same.

Like seriously.

Yes, true, we are all different from one another.

But all in all. We're still the same.

we have our dislikes and we have our likes

When we were kids, we think being adults are just the coolest.

When we were teenagers, majority of us feel really rebellious and want silly things in life. And think kids are just lame.

When we start becoming young adults, we think teenagers are lame and just so immature. We think of them like "eh tolong la...korang muda lagi"

But hey...you know what? when we were their age, the adults were thinking the exact same thing about us.

when we finally become adults. All things are just useless and the only thing that matters is how our not so much pay is going to pay all of our debts and still put food on the table and a roof over our heads.

Yes, I learn that we grow up

I QUIT!

2012-01-25T08:09:00.000-08:00

So I just read Sab's blog and I found out that she just bought one of my all time favourite movie. Koizora.

If Sab has watched this movie before, then she's safe.

But I'm telling you Sab. If this is your first time seeing the movie, I warn you. You're gonna cry like there's no tomorrow.haha...trust me.

I found out about koizora two years ago when they showed it was on astro box office.

That was the first time I cried like that watching a movie. You had no idea how bad it was.

It got worse as the movie progresses.

haha

I'm quitting my job next...so i can fully focus on my driving lessons

And also

finally get some time for myself. :)

Dah Lama x stalk Hyoyeon!

2012-01-21T18:55:00.000-08:00

Can I Really Reach For The Stars??

2012-01-21T18:16:00.000-08:00

Calling All Kaizens!!

2012-01-14T07:43:00.000-08:00

Dear Kaizenians,

You know how they say life is like a book??

Well...I have to agree with that saying...

And this time I just finished a chapter called Kaizen.

And ak rasa macam nk baca balik je chapter ni...hihi

So many new characters were explored...

so many new revelations...

so many laughable and teary-eyed moments...

and most definitely...

so many new dramas...haha

As the chapter goes on...

you can see how all the characters developed and changed,

how friendships were strengthen,

relationships got twisted

And how a lovely new romance spark between two people end up having a horror ending instead.

Really, if i made my life in KT into a book..

it would be a BIG HIT

Thanks to all characters that participated in this particular chapter.
Try finding your name!

- Che'lah
- Amalina Razali
- Tizz
- Balqis
- Hanim
- Shida
- Ainaa Nadiah
- Shafiqah Shamsudin
- Afrina
- Shafeeq
- Che' Roh
- Ecah Omar
- Nona
- Wani 5D
- Shah
- Afiq Azmi
- Farhanani
- Noji
-Mulya Mustika Sari
- Safieyah
- Athirah Zainal
- Sazmira
- Muzek
- Amir Black
- Din Roslan
- Fadilla Quraissa
- Wan Nor Shimah
- Mito
- Aisyah Hamdan
- Huda
- Q
- Yusma
- Mas
- Mimi
- Athirah 5G
- Azi
- Dzue
- Fatin Fadli
- Bella 5F
- Anati
- Vanitha
- Jessica
- Jenny
- Afiqah 5F
- Ila
- Alia
- Jie 5C
- Anis Afiqah
- Manisah
- Siti Rokiah
- Farah 5G
- Fatin Fatihah
- Chiew
- Jia
- Athirah Huzaimi
- Fatin Aina Sofea
- Aiman Shahmy
- Ainor Syahirah
- As
- Nisha
- Raaina
- Jie 5A
- Mc'Ha
- Aina Syafiqah
- Diana Yaacob
- Ida 5H
- Meeda
- Che
- Amir Bangkok
- Iqram
- Ashiah
- Ain Muza
- Izzat Aiman
- Lukman
- Azmira
- Pijah 5H
- Pija 5F
- Ain Teh
- Cerol
- Amy
- Anis Aziera
- Mabo
- E-punk
- Yoe
- Abdullah Syahmi
- Hayat
- Are-Yeen
- Hazim
- Zarul
- Azim
- Pika Ali
- Emon
- Pesal
- Izzemal
- Cerol Ariff
- Hendra
- Nik
- Ain Fatin
- Shira
- Izzy
- Biela Hassan
- Buchang
- Suhaiza
- Adib
- Kori
- Pok Jak
- Pok Yeh

- Parhie
- Acai
- Naqib
- Fahimah
-Tho
-Intan
- Din Mansor
- Iqbal Bobo
- Haziq
- Mimi SK
- Fazira
- Sha
- Nurfarhana Wahida
-Mc'Top
-Leen
- Co'ot
-Alif Zakwan
- Izra
- Fareez
- Syamil
- Farah Liyana
- Shakira
- Erwa
- Pieyna TenTen
- Rosie
-Djoh
- Dzue
- Dayah 5C
- Aiman Zakiang
- Khairunnas
- Din Blue
- Thah
- Alya Inani
- Saadah
- Aishah 5F
- Naeema
- Ada
- Zahirah
- Dayah 5F
- Azi 5F
- Mc'Roh
- Syafiq Syamsudin
- Shu KTU
- Shakir
- Twojo
- Azwan Danial
- Fikri
- Diyana Anis
- Wani 5G
- Ain Petok
- Raja Syamil
- Biela Sudin
- Yani
- Sarah
- Suzana
- Umme
- Pipah
- Anis Suraya
- Azirah
- Farah Najihah
- Ba
-Jimmy
- Nabiela Asma'
- MCR
- Shidah 5H
- Syahirah Adilla
- Fazirah
- Syu 5H
- Sharifah Hasyimah
- Hajar 5H
- Cken
- Sa
-Deli
- Syamir
-Pe-ang
- Afiq Zakeer
- Najah
- Timoh
- Pini
- Shu 5E
- Karramah
- Iqbal 5e
- Hajar 5E
-Spe'in
- Pika Ghapar
-Amril Zharif
- Nadiah Shafiqah
- Hilman
- Chong
- Afiq Ariffin
- Faiz Fahmi
And just for my kaizenians...

I have decided to contribute a blog only for you!

It's where I post all my stories about KAIZEN.

This is my official blog.

You can always visit it anytime you want.

But if you don't want to waste your time any longer.

Please press KAIZEN now!

Dear My Rainbow

2012-01-08T19:54:00.000-08:00

Sigh...

So this guy I've been crushing on for two years.

Well not so much of a crush..

More like someone I've admired for so long.

Admire, Love and Cared about.

It started off as a crush on another guy.
I nicknamed him MUFFIN.
I liked muffin a lot...like seriously....a lot...
Till it got to the point where I thought he might have found out about it.

They say the only way to get over a guy is to like another guy.
So in order for me to get over muffin
I focused on my other crush...whom also i really like.
I nicknamed him,
"Rainbow"

At first, it was merely a crush...
But as time goes on...he just takes my breath everytime I saw him.
i was so hypnotize by him
that my little crush turned into something much much bigger.

Lemme just show how in love i was with Rainbow

I HAVE NEVER

1. bAke cupcakes for a human being. let alone a guy
2. Buy a T-shirt that I carefully picked with my dearest bestfriend Ammera Hadi
3. Secretly gave a guy a keychain with the meaning of his name on it
4. and last but not least...confess to the guy that I like right infront of his face.

I have never done these things before...and I did it...Just because it was him. Just because it was Rainbow.
JUST BECAUSE IT WAS HIM.

I swallowed my ego and my pride and told him that i like him just because it was him

It's amazing what love can do to people huh??

You knw what the only problem was??
He didn't have any feelings for me.

And that's ok.
When I got into this...i knew the risk i have to face,
and one of the biggest is tht he wouldn't have any feelings for me.
And i have to accept that.

though he never reciprocated my feelings
I was still irrevocably in love with him.
everytime we chatted on facebook, or text on the phone..
My heart beats like crazy that i wish he could hear how fast it was beating.

i like being friends with him...i really do...
That's why i never jeopardize our friendship by pushing him further into something tht he doesn't want
i didn't want to lose the friendship because of something this silly.

Probably my text messages means nothing to him.
he never knew how much i value HIS text messges.
whether it's a wish for raya, my bday, or a new year's wish...i value it all...
cos it shows...yes...we do have a friendship.
yes he knows I like him...and yes I know he doesn't like me back....
but we still are very good friends.
And that's enough to make me feel ok.
Not happy or content but satisfied enough.

When I text him...i never compliment him..
instead i always highlights his imperfections,
i always insult him and never actually say nice things about him to him
because i don't want him to think i worship him.
i don't want him to think that I admire him that much.
The fact is I do.
I did it because I was trying to hide those feelings from him.

Some may say I'm crazy...and maybe even he thinks I'm crazy..
But hey..
this is me...and I can't change what i am or what i feel for someone....

I never told him that I was in love with him.
he knew that I like him. But he didn't know it was more than that.
I didn't wanna ruin our friendship so I kept it shut.
I'm scared he'd think he's giving me hopes if he keeps contacting me so tht's why i never told him i was in love with him.
When the fact is...it doesn't matter if he gave me hope or not...
i was in love and nothing could change that. i know there was no hope.
none at all...

Yes I know...you guys will say...aww don worry shamin...you'll find someone much better than this jerk...
the fact is...i don't know that...none of us knows that..
what i know is that...even though he doesn't return my feelings..
he's still a very good guy...
and he's anything but a jerk....
so any girl would be lucky to have him.
the luckiest girl in the world in fact.

he told me that he reconnects with his old love.
and he asked me if it's ok if he tells me this.
and i said i was ok.
though inside my heart was burnt with fury.
but i knew...
If i wanted to get over him...i have to hear this...
so that when i know he is with someone else..
then i can let go of him a little easier.
I cried the night he told me this..
but i know...
If I love him...i'd just want to see him happy. (:

So to Rainbow, If you're reading this,
First of all, Congrats and best of luck at UIA. I know you'll do great. You always do anyway. ^^
I know that you know that it is you i'm talking about. lol.
There's so much I want to tell you
But when I get the chance..my tongue gets tongue tied.
Everytime.

Everytime I bumped into you at school...
there's so much things I'd like to say, to joke about.
But again...tongue tied.
cos you just mean that much to me.
I'd like to joke around with you, talk to you like how I do with Muzek, Shah and all my other guy friends..
But I can't.
Cos you're tht special.
and also because you wouldn't talk to me when we see each other.
But thanks...
Thanks for still not ignoring me like all the other jerks when they knew that I like them
Thanks for still being my friend.
thanks for not feeling embarassed because of the fact that I like you.
Thanks.
I may insult you a lot and say a lot of bad things to you and never actually complimented you and always say that you lack in so many things.
but trust me...i do that to every person i love just to hide the fact that I love them.
you are very imperfect...yet you try to make everything work,
That's what got me hooked to you in the very first place.
Thanks for a splendid two years...
And now I will securely locked you in my memory box.

Good luck in UIA
and hope we meet again in the future. ^^

Yeah rainbow??
If you're seeing this...please don't be scared...lol,

Tag! You're IT!

2012-01-08T19:36:00.000-08:00

Well in this case I'm it,

Taggie2!

I got tagged again.

Now? Azalea did..haha

Syarat-syarat :

1. Sila buat satu entri mengenai giveaway ini dan tampal banner kat atas dalam entri uols. (Nak copy paste pon takpe asalkan uols kepochi kat belog uols)
2. Jangan lupa link kan sekali banner di atas ke belog Nemomimosh.
3. Tag 3 orang kawan. Sila maklumkan kat diorang yang diorang dah di tag.
4. Dah selesai semua, sila tinggalkan komen kat entri ini dan sila isi maklumat yang diperlukan :
URL Link : ________________________ (Link entri yang uols buat pasal giveaway ni)

Tag : Amanina, Sab ^^

2012-01-06T07:24:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHAHA

I just read Aza's blog.

She actually did my tag!

And yes I'm very very very happy Azalea...hahahahha

I wonder how many more will do my tag..

You know...speaking of Azalea..

the one thing I respect most about her is that she actually doesn't choose her man.

she accepts her guy for what he is..

back when she and i were not on speaking terms...

she dated this jerk who wasn't good for her or anyone else for that matter.

He wasn't even good looking!

Like seriously!

I had no idea why she picked him out of all the guys she could have,

But she made the right choice when she called it quits.

Because now she finds someone she truly loves.

You know to be frank

And i feel so happy for her.

I can see how Iskandar has this big positive influence on her.

She's a changed woman now, XD

Aza's blog use to have a lot of swearings and you know..those kinds of stuff...

but now?

It's only full with appreciation on life.

which I really like to read by the way. ^^

Keep on going where you're heading azalea.

No matter how much people try to bring you down. ^^

I don't know why I'm talking bout Aza all of a sudden...haha

I guess it because

I feel like it?

And i've always been jealous of the relationship you have with iskandar.

I wished I have it.

Well..soon huh??

People say you need to go through all the jerks to find the right one.

And so you did.

Now I have to go through jerks first...hahahaha

I Got My First PAY!

2012-01-06T06:54:00.000-08:00

So I just got my salary for last month.

300 bucks.

Truthfully I'm pissed.

Do you know how much time and energy i wasted at econsave just because i thought the salary was 900??

Like seriously...I just feel like crying.

U have no idea how much I tired my body out just to get money...

I just feel like crying seriously...

and of course la bila dpt gaji kna blanja family kan..

what the hell ami i going to do with 300 bucks??!!

Family ak bkan makan ckit,

Ntah2 nnt kluar...habis duit sbb bwk dyorg mkn kluar

AK??

x dpt ap pun dgn gaji tu...

i mean it's not tht I don wan belanja my family...

tapi x bole ke blanja next month when my gaji dh bertmbah,,,

I mean...this is my first gaji man

Is it wrong for me to have a taste of it??

Tagging. Nasib Baik Aku Ada Mood.

2012-01-05T08:59:00.000-08:00

So, this is the tag that Mc'Ha tagged in her blog.

Nasib baik ak ad mood nk buat benda2 leceh mcm ni skrg....haih..

1 . You must post this rules in your entry.

2 . Each person must post about themselves in their entry.
3 . Answer the question than tagger set for you in their post. And create eleven new questions for new people you tagged to answer.

4 . You have to choose eleven people to tag link them on the post.

5 . Go to their page and tell them you have tagged HIM/HER.

6 . NO TAG BACK !

7 . No stuff in tagging section ''YOU ARE TAGGED IF YOU READING THIS''.

8 . " YOU ARE LEGITIMATELY'' -a.k.a REALY , TRUST , WITH ALL HONEST- have tag eleven people.

1. 11 facts about this blogger.

1. Shamin Insyirah Roslan

2. 18 Years Old (finally!)

3. Former MRSM Kuala Terengganu Student

4. Best Friends : Ammera Hadi & Nadia Zuraida

5 A Die Hard Fan Of :

- Harry Potter Books

- Little Black Dress Books

- TVXQ Jaejoong

- SNSD Hyoyeon

- Selena Gomez

- Kareena Kapoor

6. i <3 Rainbows ^^

7. I'm still not sure whether I'm an optimist or a pessimist

8. Born on the 26th of November

9. Rainbow, I still like you no matter how much I tried to move on.

10. A Kpop Addict.

2. Questions from Haziqah Halimah Yahya

1. What is your favourite place to go?

Malls and Mind Fantasies (:

2. Do you have pet? What is it?

Cats. Ironic thing is...I'm actually allergic to them.

Nowadays I only have three I think, Vanilla Messi And Jimmy.

Use to have a lot more.

They're the reason I catch a flu everytime I get back home.

3. Exposed to the public or Undercover? Which one you prefer?

Both.

There has to be a balance

4. Apple or Windows?

Apple

5. Where was your birthplace?

Wherever my mum was at that time.

6. Your favourite food is...?

It never fails me.

Nenek's Rendang Daging

7. Do you support 'No Plastic Bags Day'?

Umm...would I still be able to say I support it if I don't actually apply it in real life?

8. What is your favourite school?

Hogwarts. Without a Doubt.

I found out I was a Muggle when I didn't get "The Letter" on my eleventh birthday.

9. What brand do you like the most?

Juicy Couture and I-Socks. ^^

10. Have you ever regret of doing something? What is it?

Never. I believe everything happens for a reason.

11. Do you love yourself?

Depends on my day.

4. Tagging Part

Seriously people...If you don't feel like doing this, You don't need to.

I'm just doing it for the sake of it.

Kakak

Azalea

Hajar

Kak Hanan

Nat

Qis

Balqis

Bella

Anis

Shafiq

Sara

The Ink Is F!nished

2011-12-31T17:51:00.000-08:00

That's because the book has end!

Haha..

Tonight I'll have to go the store in my mind to get a new book and a new pen

for my 2012 book.

I have decided to call this year's book
Kaizen : XOXO

The continued story of my 2010 book.
Kaizen.

Honestly...these two books are the best two books that I've ever written in my entire seventeen years of life.
Both books have both of the most intense and suspense parts but both also has some of the happiest scenes I've ever encountered in the 21st century. Well....so far at least.

To be honest..there are times when I regretted going to MRSMKT.
You see...
For one thing, it's because there this whole lot of pressure to always score on your exams.
And another is because I kept thinking that If I hadn't gone to MRSMKT...I would be in PA and have a close group of friends.
Ammera..my best friend till the end of the world...
well...after I moved to another school.
She got super close with Aza, Hajar, Thanu, and Sashi.
And I can't blame he since I was the one who left her.
And me...well before I found out that I was going to move..
I was just starting to get close with Aza, Hajar, Sashi, and Thanu,
But we didn't get the chance to get close because I had to move.
Now on FB...everywhere I can see pics of the five of them.
And I can't help but feel really jealous.
Like I could've been one of them.
I could have a close group of friends that is close to home!

I mean don't get me wrong...I <3 my friends in KT.
It's just that they all live in terengganu and kelantan..
chances of meeting them after SPM?? 2%
While these people?? they can meet almost everyday if they want to.

I still remember my farewell party before I went to MRSMKT.
Everyone was there.
Ammera of course, Aza, Hajar, Sashi, Thanu, Amanina
and for once I really felt happy and content,
And i wanna feel like that again.

So this one is for aza, hajar, thanu and sashi(who's going to plkn by the way)
i wish we had time to get close as you guys really are fun people to be with.
I'm sorry we didn't have that time.

And for Kaizen...well they're a completely different story.
So much things that happen between me and these people, I'm not sure I can describe it in words.
All I can say is that you guys are the best
and my life in KT would be lifeless without you lot.

and if I ever travel back to Terengganu
I would for sure visit you guys OK?

^^

Eye Candy

2011-12-27T00:51:00.000-08:00

So after I got off work yesterday..

My mum ajak us all kluar to celebrate my bday.

We didn't had a chance to celebrate it on the day itself as I was having my SPM at that time.

I got off quite early yesterday..
around 6.45 as I was doing morning shift..
so later tht night
we went out to celebrate my seventeenth bday,

We ended up eating at Bubba Gump Shrimp at Pyramid.
Really...if you ever go to bubba gump.
DON'T ORDER ANYTHING ELSE.
JUST THE SHRIMPS..
THEY ARE TO DIE FOR,

seriously...
my mum ordered a bucket of shrimps and it was finish in five minutes...
cos the shrimps were just too delicious
and the fact that we were all starving helps too ^^

and then suddenly my mum calls the waiter and told him tht we're here to celebrate my bday,
honestly i could've killed her right at tht moment.
cos i know bubba gump likes to make big fuss about everyone's bdays just like TGIs.

It was a matter of time,
I knew it.
Suddenly, all the hot waiters were surrounding our tables and were screaming for me to get up and
"STAND ON THE CHAIR!!"
They repeatedly shouted till i got up and stood on the chair...
They sang this very weird but cool birthday song before asking me to booty shake.
AND~ so I did...haha
Before giving me a not-so-much ice cream cake,

And this was my mud pie!
It was super delish but since everyone was already full with the shrimps and our own main course with my smoothie some more...
the mud pie was too much for me...
don't be fooled by the pic,
The mud pie is HUGE.

And the guy who handed me the ice cream cake was really cute!
like REALLY CUTE!

and i don't know why..
i guess i just have this weakness for cute/hot/sexy/bad boys..
i mean...which girl doesn't right??

The thing with me is that...
everytime i'm in front of these amazing guys..
i get all stupid and clumsy..
like...i can't even think straight!

Example like the guy who waiter who gave me the ice cream cake??
Yeah he said "happy bday" to me
and you knw wat I said??
"you're welcome""
i know stupid right??
like why the hell would i say that??
i mean it's not like my english is bad or anything!

maybe my head was still in the clouds because such a really cute guy wished me.
I mean. I've never been wished by a cute stranger before,,
TOTALLY cute,
So yeah..i was kinda flattered.
And what did I do?
Made a total fool of myself!
sigh...

then suddenly everyone wants to watch movie...
when we reached this new mall yg mmg xde org pegi...it was already close to midnight..
we went there because when there's not a lot of people..
the cinema would be full of empty seats!
my whole family opted to watch M14

while I! picked sherlock holmes..
i've been wanting to watch that movie for so long!

hahahaha

so??
we ended up reaching home at 3.30 on the morning.

Luckily my shift was afternoon the next day!
so..i had enough sleep.

Kareena Spam!

2011-12-20T08:05:00.000-08:00

See? Even Bollywood can be high class...

I love Kareena...depsite what everyone says about her.

She's just her...

How I Wish!

2011-12-20T07:39:00.000-08:00

If only I could print out the pics and BAM!

My room jadi mcm dlm pic tu...hahaha

This would be when I get married. ^^

And this one too!

wow...just...wow.

Suddenly...It Feels Like A Movie.

2011-12-20T07:25:00.000-08:00

You know how there are those movies where they show you like..

how most IT girls in school would become nothing but a fat, jobless lady in the future

How the main character who is usually the plain jane type that always get kicked around by the IT girl back in high school and now she's the one with the succesfull career and all, while suddenly bumped into the IT girl who's now working as the cleaner at a supermarket. On top of tht she's fat and wrinkled-face with too much make up for her own good.

Well...you know what...I'm so feeling like the IT girl.

And the worst part is...I'm not even the IT girl! I'm the plain jane but experiencing the IT girl's fate.

Seriously.

I mean..i tau la baru lpas spm.

But working as a cashier at econsave is really enough to make me feel like a loser.

i mean...i hear all my friends..

interview spc la...mcm2 la...

And me???

Econsave.

And being a cashier...i get bored really fast especially if there's no customers..

But my colleagues are great..they're really great people...

And you know that's the one thing I like about working.

you realize tht..in any field of job...you'll have new colleagues almost every month.

Some of them doesn't even stay around long enough for you to know them more than their names.

And these people..

they come from all sorts of backgrounds...

some of which you thought you'd never encounter.

I never thought I'd meet someone who goes straight for work after finishes spm and didn't think about furthering his studies..because he needed money to give to his parents.

and he's already 24 years old.

Kelantanian. -.-"

And my colleagues..

They're like this one big family..

And they've tried to pull me in.

Make me feel like i'm one of them too.

But I just can't seem to fit in.

I mean..i'm ok with everyone...bole je..

But you know...i do feel a little alone and left out sometimes...

I'm the kinda girl who tries all she can to fit in..
but this time i didn;t even bother.
i became very anti-social like there...
and i don't know why..

And everytime I feel lonely...
my mind would wander off to my Kaizens..
I really miss them so much..
I would remember at this time of the day..che lah and I would try to sneak out of the dorm at night to go to prep..
i would remember the times all the girls had to run from the principal..
i remember the time when it was during activity week and my messy cube was shown on movie night(Now that was one hell of an embarassment)

I remember the time after night prep...mcna and I would go buy nasi kafe...haha
Sigh...

Like....Ok...It Just Hit Me In The Face.

2011-12-16T07:00:00.000-08:00

Ok...So...First of all..

I wanna congratulate all my friends who are finally furthering their studies.

SPCs, SPC Interviews whatever...

I mean if you nail something...meaning you are going somewhere...

So whatever it is...congrats...

You know how now everyone wants to do asasi instead degree cos it takes a longer time get a degree than completing your asasi.

Asasi takes one year while a degree takes three to four years right??

But you know what asasi actually is??

It's only one year because they crammed in three years of degree education into one year..

That's why most people couldn't cope with pressure.

Only the fittest of the fittest can survive.

So even if i don't get asasi..

i don't think i'd envy my friends who gets it..

i mean...i'd be lying if i say i'm not jealous at all.

But not so much I guess...

I mean...

I know myself better than anyone else..

so I know I'm the type of person who can't ever handle that kind of pressure.

Seriously.

I'm more of the...

Take-it-slow- type...

hehe...

or as human civilization calls it..

Procrastination. ^^

So...(like I need to tell the whole world)

i just started working..

and you know what?

I'm starting to actually appreciate the value of money a lil bit...

I mean...really..

it's not as easy it looks you know..working

You deal with all sorts of people everyday..

and you just have to suck it up and go on with your job..

And this is only cashier!

It's not even one of those big industrial jobs yet...

really you guys...for those recent school leavers a.k.a 2011 spm candidates.

I advice you to get a job...like right now...

Go get some experience

cos you're gonna need it when you get to college

trust me ^^

How many lipsticks do you think was used??

Selena Spam! Hyoyeon Spam!

2011-12-14T05:19:00.000-08:00

i love LOVE this one right here!

Hyoyeon!

So I'm Sorry OK??

2011-12-13T07:41:00.000-08:00

To that one particular dude..

Fine..i'm sorry for calling you a "dog"

Even though i did not call you that actually

whatever...

and you know what...

i think it's best if we just act as if we never even knew each other exist..

i think that would be better for me

cos i don't wanna hurt you anymore.

I value you too much as a friend.

Seriously, Why Am I Feeling So Down??

2011-12-11T21:10:00.000-08:00

Ok I know I'm suppose to be having the time of my life now that SPM's over.

But you know what??

I think my life was more stress free BEFORE SPM.

I mean, I'm not saying I wasn't stressed out during SPM.

But i find my emotions are much more unstable after SPM.

It's weird I know.

But that's exactly what I'm feeling right now.

I'm stressed about getting my driving license.

I'm stressed about my job that I'm about to start this week.

I'm stressed about how unhappy I am right now.

And you know what's the worst part is??

I don't know the reason!!

What I do know is that I started feeling down after the lecture I got from my parents two days ago.

Seriously.

I was feeling alright before that.

Just when they start lecturing me like that.

I feel really down.

Maybe because some of the things they said to me was hurtful

And it showed how they completely misunderstood me all this while.

And not just that...

I feel like I'm losing all my friends.

Ak malas dh nk bukak FB

cuz i get envious when I see all my friends living a happy life.

It's like when I see all their latest post/updates/pics.

I can see how happy their lives has been after SPM.

I'm wondering why I am not??

I feel down.

I feel like crying,

I feel like breaking everything in my room.

I feel anti-social-ish

And I don't feel like seeing anyone I know for the moment.

Because I'm just too depressed.

Yeah...that's the word.

Depressed.

I likeD you.

2011-12-11T20:51:00.000-08:00

You know what??

I used to like you...like a lot!

I like you so much that it got to the point where I thought I was obsessed with you.

Well..I was.

But now..it can be so suffocating just by looking at your name in Facebook.

SUFFOCATING.
Seriously.
So I'm glad that school is over.
Cos now I don't have to see your face almost everyday and think how pathetic I am for liking someone like you.
But the best part??
I'm finally getting over you.
Alhamdullilah.

Marriage

2011-12-11T00:00:00.000-08:00

Somebody once said to me that the real heroes of our times are not the astronauts and space explorers,

they are the people who can survive a marriage. I agree.

Here's what other women say about marriage,

"Women feel that if they don't go home at five o'clock and get the socks washed and dinner cooked, they will lose their man. They are afraid to put the relationship to the test by confronting the issue.

When woman ask for help, they begin to work out better relationships with the people they live with. MEn are delighted to be included. It gets them involved in something helpful.

Most marriages get perfunctory as they go along. This starts something positive in the relationship."

Quoted from Maggie Trip, lecturer and author.

"Marrying a man is like buying something you've been admiring for a long time in a shop window. You may love it when you get it home, but it doesn't always go with everything else in the house."

Jean Kerr,

The Snake Has All The Lines

Doubleday

In The Mood For Writing...This Is Gonna Be Long~

2011-12-08T04:03:00.000-08:00

1. Hazwani And Shahrul.

So I went out with Iqbal and Balqis today.

And truthfully...I pity Iqbal..

I mean...he was walking with two girls...

He was defenseless.

You see..Iqbal is more of the outdoorsy type...when he goes out...

he wants to play bowling, enter theme parks...

And me??

Well...I'm more of the shopping and relax type.

So my usual outing would be..

Go watch a movie, then go eat, then go shopping/window shopping.

And so when I go out with guys...I like it if they make a decision as to where we should go..

But since Iqbal was with me and Balqis.

Like I said he was defenseless..

He kept asking me where do I wanna go.

And I said..."Ikutla...ak x kisah"

Still...he doesn't make any decisions...

he didn't wanna watch breaking dawn...

So i said...ok fine...we'll go to cosmo's world..

I did say though if the ticket fee is more than 10...i am so not gonna enter as i was saving money for shoes...

And what a surprise...it was more than 10..obviously...

and since i didn't bring my i.c...the price was more for me.

and so I said it's ok you could go in if you want to but I won't be following.

and then suddenly dy x nk masuk...

and so we ended up going to the cinema again and watched "Immortals"

And I had to pick the movie.

Immortals was brutal...very very brutal..

but this is the only movie that has a handsome zeus and a very good looking poseidon.

i mean...in any movie poseidon has always been good looking. But this...

Oh this puts me right into poseidon team.

It is played by Kellan Lutz..The guy who plays Emmet in Twilight?

I've always like Kellan Lutz. Ever since 90210.

Twilight just made him ugly when he is suppose to SUPER good looking.

Anyways...what I'm trying to tell you here is that...

I feel sorry for Iqbal..

Cos he didn't get to do all the things he wanted.

He just tagged along with me and balqis.

While me and balqis go jalan2 and go shopping.

I feel so sorry for him seriously..

I think he did got fed up at one point...

cos he just said after went to surau for zohor...

he wanted to meet his cousin who's at the bowling alley..
And balqis and i were glad actually..
Balqis and I went jln2 without any specific destination...
we went and ate japanese crepes...
and ended up in one of my most favourite stores in the entire world... i-socks!
Balqis gave me a shirt as a birthday gift.
it was from i-socks...so I couldn't say no...hihihi...
And take my advice..if you want to take the KTM to go anywhere...make sure you don't take it after six.
it is BEYOND packed.

2. Sashini, Thanuja, Hajar, Azalea, and Ammera Hadi.
You know..
When I first entered SMKPA...I wasn't exactly in good terms with Azalea.
I forgot why we hated each other so much back then..
But when we entered Upper Form..
she and I had to share the same class...
and naturally we became friends...
and eventually we became close...
suddenly I had a group of close friends instead of just mera..
I was really glad I patched things up with azalea.
And just as I was about to actually be sincerely happy in PA,
I had to move to MRSMKT.
Not that I ever regret going to MRSMKT.
Just that I wish I had more time to spend with these people.
Now when I read Aza's blog, Hajar's blog and see how happy they are.(sashi,thanu,mera,aza,hajar)
I wished that I could be closer to aza, hajar, sashi and thanu.
Cos tthey seemed like really cool people.
Last year I went and celebrate my bday with aza, mera, and hajar...
And since i still wasn't that close with them yet...i kinda had problem having fun.
It's always like that with me. And I blamed myself for everything.
I wished all of us could go out again...and do really crazy things and just have the time of our life.
I remember the time when we all gathered at my house for my farewell party.
Now that was fun.
I kinda feel sad tht I'm not one of them.
I feel sad knowing tht I could've been close with all these people.
I've never really had a group of close friends whom I feel really close with.
And I really wished I had with these amazin people.
But...everything happens for a reason.
Ever since I moved school...I haven't been in contact with anyone else except for ammera
Since we were just about to get to know each other before i moved...it seemed strange to contact them now.
But whatever it is...i wished for them to have a happy and good life. :)

So hajar, azalea, sashi, thanu..
If you're reading this...just know that i really wanted to get close to all of you.
Just that time won't let me to.
And i feel so sorry for that.
The friendship that you five have is very great..
And I want you guys to hold to that friendship.
Cos it's very beautiful.
You guys made sure mera is always happy when I'm not around..
And I don't know How I could ever repay you guys for what you have done
All I could say is thank you.
Thank you for taking care of mera.
You guys may not feel that way.
But i Do.
So again, thanks. :)

3. Really you guys??

When I'm mad at someone or if I shout at someone...it doesn't mean I hate that person or that my soul is full of hatred. I don't hate that person. I just hate what he or she had done. Please get that fact straight.

And when I don't smile...don't misunderstand it by saying I'm not happy.
I just look that way.
If i'm not feeling anything specifically...if I just feel numb...should I be smiling??!!

Cmon la people...please be logic
You ask me to accept that my elder sister is gedik and girlish...my younger sister is annoying..and abang is...welll...abang...You ask me to accept these people as they are...
Now why can't you accept me as I am??
Accept the fact that I don't smile??
Is that so hard to accept?
And you said I'm the one who don't accept my sibling as they are.

Seriously???

Before you make any judgement bout me..
maybe you should ask me first what's going in my head...instead of attacking me with a two-hours lecture alright??
Instead of wanting to make me spill it all out...u just made me more scared of you.
You just scared the hell out of me and made not want to tell you anything more.
Seriously.
I'm scared like shit now to talk to you or him(your partner)
Do you know what's the meaning of scared??

I don't know how you guys can make such a big deal out of something so simple.
Everyone knows it's hard for me to put on a smile...
so please...i'm not asking much...
just accept that fact.

And to that one particular blogger whom I was so pissed off at for putting those tasteless and low class post about girls who like two guys at the same time.
I apologize,
I was in no position to be say those things about you on my blog.
I should've talked about it with you in personal.
by putting that post in my blog...i have become like you.
dishing out on people when i don't even have the right to...
And i don't want to be like you.
So I'm sorry for what I did.
And the next time there's something I'm not satisfied with you..
I'll definitely talk to you and you only..
No one else needs to know about it.

And presenting!! My new wallet!!

Work? Driving Lessons?

2011-12-05T04:20:00.000-08:00

So my one week hols after SPM will finally end.

And I guess it's time for me to start doing all the things I said I wanted to do before I SPM.

Hehe.

Life hasn't been hectic all.

In fact. It's been too slow that I'm starting to get really annoyed with myself for not doing anything around the house.

But I was the one who wanted a one-week rest without doing anything.

And on top of that...

I'm havin a freaking toothache!

no matter.

i have four months of holiday...

Let's make it....how I want it!

2011-11-05T19:54:00.001-07:00

Insyirah LOVES Vintage

2011-11-04T19:50:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but I have this thing for vintage style ever since I could remember.

I just never try it myself because I wasn't confident I could pull it off with my fat body.

I Especially Like This One Right Here!

Nak dress putih tu!

This one's a favourite too!

When will I ever wear this stuff?

I don't know.

probably after I lose like 30 pounds.

=.='

Sweet Seventeen Wishes.

2011-11-04T18:43:00.000-07:00

And Everything Juicy!

The Countdown Starts

2011-11-03T18:19:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday Hyo!!!

2011-09-22T20:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Hyo's bday...

Hihi!

So Hyo....

Happy Bday!

What It Should Be.

2011-09-04T18:46:00.000-07:00

Hey you guys..

I guess this is going to be my last post before I go back to Maktab this afternoon.

Also probably my last post before SPM ends.

So I decided to make this last post a hyoyeon gif spam.

HIHI.

But before that though..

I'd just like to say how much things have changed over the past few years.

My friends for instance have changed a lot...

Most of them have become more or less mature.

Some of them have forgotten me completely.

Some of them still remembers me and contact me.

But you know that's life.

And I think over the years..

They will change more and more.

And there's nothing that I can do to stop it.

Sometimes I feel really mean when I take things for granted.

Ohh what am i blabbering about here.

I myself don't even know.

I guess I'm just feeling melancholic and yet still psyched that I'm going back to school.

And finish this SPM thing one and for all.

Selena Spam!

2011-08-31T19:19:00.000-07:00

A Few Years Down The Road

2011-08-28T23:07:00.000-07:00

Since I started high school.

I wonder where I'll be a few years down the road.

When I was form 1...I wonder where I'll be when I'm sixteeen.

Would I still be in SMK Subang Jaya? Or would I be in a different school?

Or worse...in a BOARDING school?

I really didn't wanna go to boarding school.

Simply because the boarding schools in Malaysia just ain't as cools as the ones they have in Britain.

The big castle-like building

The smart uniforms.

You know like the boarding school they showed in Wild Child starring emma roberts.

Malaysians boarding schools are everything they're not.

Dining Hall.

I just love the old British house feel they have in the dining hall.

Lecture Hall.

Now this is what we call a lecture hall! Comfy, nice and just...just....NICE!

see what I mean??

Since I was a kid...I have this fascination over castle-like schools and houses.

It's just very old -looking and very classic.

Who knew that a few years down the road I'll be in boarding school.

I'm not saying that I don't love MRSMKT.

It's just that I would love it if the school could be something like the boarding schools in England.

There's nothing wrong with wanting something different right?

Putting that aside.

Look at THiS!

They are just the sweetest thing ever!

I keep liking her more and more!

I don't have anything against Justin Bieber nor do I have anything for him.

But I like seeing these two together.

And I like it that he shows his affection towards her without worrying about what everybody else thinks or how his fans would react.

Blogging vs. Vlogging.

2011-08-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

Now what is vlogging??

It's like blogging...just that you don't write it down..

You make a video of it then you put in on youtube like matlutfi does...

That's vlogging.

Some time I think that vlogging is easier than blogging.

You just take a video of you and whatever you wanna say

Then post it on the net!

Simple right.

But then...

you have to find a good spot to take the video

Then you have to log in to youtube

then wait for it to be uploaded.

So I think blogging is more suitable for me. ^^

Or anyone else who likes to read. ^^

So I was catching up on my blog reading and I find that Hajar's blog is very nice.

I like all the post that she puts up. I like what she has to say.

Because most of them are very true.

Sometimes I think the way she thinks is the same way as how I think.

And sometimes she makes me say stuff like "hmm...btol jugak apa dy cakap."

Her blog is sweet and simple but very informative. The song that she put on is nice too.

I'm getting there.....Just need a little push..

2011-08-25T18:45:00.000-07:00

Hey you!

Been a while huh??

Well I just got back from maktab kesayangan...

My bus ticket was at 10 pm last night...

But Aiman Syahmi wanted to stay late so he trade his bus ticket-which was 8.30-with me.

I soon regretted it though....because the bus I was suppose to be on...suddenly rosak.

So I waited there for another hour before I actually got on the bus and start my journey home.

Halfway down the road...we had to change bas pulak...

When we changed the bus...the passengers were not sitting according to their seats' numbers anymore....so I just sat anywhere...suddenly this one mamat started scolding me about how I'm sitting at his seat.

Stupid bloke.

Can't he see everyone is not sittting according to their seat?

Luckily the bus manager explain everything.

The bad news was I had to sit beside a guy.

This big african american looking bloke.

Not that I have anything against dark-skinned guys...

In fact I'm drawn to them

Just that...I don't like the idea of sitting beside a guy in a bus...

Just very uncomfortable.

But I got home safely. Haha..Thank god.

KarMa Third Day.

2011-07-03T00:19:00.000-07:00

I forgot to tell you guys what KarMa was the last time I post my entry didn't i?

It's the name of the buletin for the carnival maths..

KARnival MAths.

Get it?

hhehehe...

Hendra came up with the name.

So it's the third day of the naths' carnival and finally things are starting to slow down...

rather than first day which was super hectic...

But first day was the best though,...

welcoming all the other mrsm to the school.

It was really nice...

Things are slowing down now since we're near to the end of the carnival.

Tomorow would be the final quiz and the closing ceremony.

I'll be the MC for the closing ceremony.

Kinda excited actually.

It's 3.30 and the participants are all out of the maktab...

outing around terengganu.

I really want to go but helpers need to stay...

crappy right,

neways....

out of boredom...

here i am

updating my blog..

hehehehehe

I did find some hot shots though...hehe

tapi ak sedar sape la ak ni kannn

hahahah

tape2...

nothing else to update here..

will keep you updated!

in another few weeks!

hahahaha

P.S Ammera Hadi. I miss you!

KarMa.

2011-07-01T22:08:00.000-07:00

So you might be wondering how could i be updating my blog when i am supposed to be at boarding school right.

It's the maths carnival.

Everyone has gone home because of the carnival.

And me....well

being the mc

I need to be here of course, and mrs fini put in my name in the helpers' list.

kind of pissed off at first cos i really wanted to go back home. But after the first day which was two days ago.

I kinda like it.

Being a helper and stuff.

I am the ajk urusetia.

So i dont actually need to go around and help anyone.

My job is to sit in the secretariat room and...

do nothing??

lol

ak pun x tau la apa kerja ak.

But yesterday was tiring though.

Participants from all 45 mrsms came....

so i was kinda psyched up....

mana tau kannn...

dapat jumpa hot shots kan????

hahhaha

our dorm kan jauh...

so the participants need to be send to the dorm dgn bus sdri...

so in order to show the way....

kene ad dua helpers masuk skali dlm bus tu and show the way.

I really want to get in transkrian and taiping bus..

just because...

welll

hihihihihi

AND I GOT MY WISH!!!

but it was nice yesterday...

i got to enter all the buses and take pics of the participants...

overall it was a really fun and tiring day.

gtg....

lots of other works waiting.

A person I've come to like and love.

2011-06-09T10:26:00.000-07:00

Ok.

So I've been liking this guy since last year.

And

At first I thought it was merely a crush...

Well..i guess not now..

It's been like this for a few months now.

Sometimes I wonder if he knows how special he is to me.

I wonder if he is excited when I tegur him on facebook.

Or would he be annoyed and sigh and said 'ish minah ni...asyik2 kacau ak'

I seriously wonder that you know.

I wonder if he reads this...

Would he know it's him I'm talking about

or would he be so clueless and stupid not to know it's him i'm talking about.

I wonder if he ever thinks about me like I always think about him.

I know the answer to that question but somehow...i don't know why I'm still in denial.

I wonder if he knows how much my heart hurts everytime he talks about his crush to me though he already knows that I like him a lot.
I wonder. Really.

He's my first serious crush since my first love back when I was form two.

I still remember how it felt to be in love for the first time.

And i know i still haven't completely moved on from my first love.

But the feelings that i had for my first love is the same as the feelings i have for this person.

Only much stronger i think.

Because unlike my first love who was a fucking jerk.

This guy is actually

quite a gentleman.

Just a very down-to-earth guy.

Not only tht...he's one of the few guys that I found who can actually think straight and sensible.

He knows when it's time to joke around.

And he knows when it's time to concentrate and be serious.

He's smart too which actually kinda gave a little bit of boost for me to be better at my studies and beat him.

If you ask me..

though he has many flaws...

for a guy at his age..

he's the perfect guy.

Yes..i am emo-ing...

sorry for this emo post.

But I just have to put it on.

Now I'm bored.

2011-06-07T21:47:00.000-07:00

So I just read Sab's Blog and she posted like four post on the same day.

Either she was really in the mood to update her blog or she was really...REALLY bored. hahaha

Joking Sab.

And so now...I'm bored..so I read eveything...haha...

She did this thing where it's kind of like a biodata...just more detailed..

I gotta say...she got some guts.

There were one part where it says have you ever sent love letters to anyone??

and well..

go to her blog to see her answer will ya??

But i gotta say it again.

she got some guts.

haha

But after reading that post...i feel like i wanna do it too...

This is for myself...so if you guys malas nk baca...it's ok

but it'd be nice if you guys can read it though...ehehehe

Name: Shamin Insyirah Roslan

Date of Birth:26th November 1994

Birthplace: Assunta Hospital, KL

Current Location: Puncak Alam, Kuala Selangor, Malaysia, South-East Asia, Earth

Eye Color: Dark Brown

Hair Color: Pitch Black

Height: 1.62 m

Heritage: Malay

Piercings: Used to have at both of my ears... I don't remember the last time I wore earrings. So now the holes pun dah tutup. he3

Tattoos: nope

Favourite

Band/Singer: TVXQ! Now and Always.

Song: Shampoo. Marry You (glee vers.), who says by selena gomez. And not to forget snsd latest song, MR.. TAXI!

Movie: Koizora. I never not cry when I watch this movie.

Disney Movie: Disney Waktu Rehat. I know. But it's the only thing I watch on Disney now.

TV show: GLEE.

Color: Pink. Forever and always. But currently I'm really into white and rainbow.

Food: Lamb Chop

Pizza topping: Beef and Pepperoni with cheese

Ice-Cream Flavor: Vanilla with chocolate syrup

Drink (alcoholic): Nope. Wait...do Sake count?? hahaha..I'm joking.

Soda: Coca-cola

Store: 7-eleven

Clothing Brand: Forever 21, Kitschen, Anna Sui

Shoe Brand: Jimmy Choo, though I could never fit to any of his shoes. Same goes to Manolo Blahniks, and Marc Jacobs..and Vinccis

Season: Fall

Month: November!

Holiday/Festival: Eidilfitri and School Holidays!

Flower: Blue Rose

Make-Up Item: Lip Gloss

Board game: Chess

This or That

Sunny or rainy: Rainy

Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate

Fruit or veggie: Neither. But If I have to pick...It'd be fruits.

Night or day: Night

Sour or sweet: Bitter sweet?

Love or money: Both?

Phone or in person: In person

Looks or personality: Can I have both??

Coffee or tea: Tea

Hot or cold: Cold

Your

Goal for this year: To get 10A's in SPM

Most missed memory: Being in kindergarten

Best physical feature: My eyes probably?? my friends say it's my smile though...I don't know man. You decide.

First thought waking up: "where's my phone??"

Hypothetical personality disorder: Does Second Child Syndrome counts??

Preferred type of plastic surgery: hmm...i would never do it but if i cud...i'd love to do Liposuction. ehehehe

Sesame street alter ego: Monster Cookie!! Or was it cookie monster??

Fairytale alter ego: Princess Aurora

Most stupid remark: Hmm.... Never came to mind....

Worst crime: There's no such thing as worst crime with me. Best crime??? Yes I could name a few...hahahaha

Greatest ambition: To achieve great success in this life and the hereafter

Greatest fear: Being single when I reached 40. That's just sad man.

Darkest secret: *NOT TELLING*

Favorite subject: English~

Strangest received gift: I don't even get that much gifts.. Haha...

Worst habit: Lazy to study I guess

Do You

Smoke: Never!

Drink: Na'ah~

Curse: Sometimes.. Rarely...

Shower daily: Of course!

Like thunderstorms: LOVE THEM. It gives you the feeling of being in a mad scientist's lab. MUAHHAHAHAHAHHA!

Dance in the rain: Always.

Sing: Always. My favourite past time.

Play an instrument: Currently no... I'd love to play the piano though.

Get along with your parents: ...

Wish on stars: Never. I don't believe in fairy tales.

Believe in fate: Definite.

Believe in love at first sight: well....love at first sight...it does work on some people.

Can You

Drive: Yes....a bit.

Sew: Yes. Also a bit. lol. =p

Cook: ...

Speak another language: Yes.

Dance: Yes I do...and I must say...I think I'm quite good at it.

Sing: Yes, yes and YES!

Touch your nose with your tongue: Oh this one is for Sab. It is possible...lol... Have you heard about a guy named Gene Simmons??

Whistle: Tried. Can't.

Curl your tongue: *nods*

Have You Ever

Been Drunk: nope

Been Stoned/High: Yeah...but by sugar. Ha3

Eaten Sushi: Futomaki Sushi

Been in Love: Yes...a few times actually.

Skipped school: In primary school. In secondary school. Yes. Usually...it's because of cross country. Ha3

Made prank calls: Yes...to a friend of mine named Ashwin. hahaha

Sent someone a love letter: LOl. This question. Umm...I did write a love letter. But I never actually sent it to that person.

Stolen something: Yes. He3

Cried yourself to sleep: Yeah...still do actually...once because of tht person. yeah...stupid me for crying over a guy...but hey...

Other Questions

What annoys you most in a person?
-A know-it-all

Are you right or left handed?
-Right-handed

What is your bedtime?
-Am I suppose to have a bed time??

Name three things you can't live without:
1. My Phone.
2. My music.
3. My freedom

What is the color of your room?
-Pink! Pink! Pink!

Do you have any siblings?
- Four including me. I'm the second.

Do you have any pets?
-Yup. But we only have three cats left. Used to be A LOT more than that. Vanilla, Gaebu, and Messi.

Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?
-Depends. If it's Taylor Swift. YEah..I'd probably would do it.

What is your middle name?
-Insyirah

What are your nicknames?

Min, Iin, Angah

Are you for or against gay marriage?
-I am not for nor am i against. I'm neutral.

What are your thoughts on abortion?
-...

Do you have a crush on anyone?
-I do. And though he's crushed my heart. I still like him. A lot. Oh well. Everything happens for a reason right??

Are you afraid of the dark?
-Sometimes. When there's not a glimpse of light. Cos I can't see at all...So I'm worried that I might trip over something.

How do you want to die?
-In my sleep or during labour.

What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day?
-Four.

Would you take a bullet for the one you love?
-Yes. Without a doubt.

What is the last law you've broken?
-I am a law abiding citizen! HA3 joking. I can't remember actually

In a Member of the Opposite Sex

Hair color: Black or Dark Brown

Eye color:Dark Brown I guess??

Height: Taller than me.. Hmm... 175 cm and above?

Weight: Heavier than me but not in the obese range of course.

Most important physical feature: Has a nice smile!

Biggest turn-off: Again. A know-it-all. And it depends on the level of his kekoyaan. hahaha

It's that ironic feeling again. crawling under my skin.

2011-06-05T07:13:00.000-07:00

So my sis went back to Penang this morning.

Aannndd...I just finish watching glee season2

the first ten episodes anyway.

I go to boarding school so I can't really follow all these tv programmes they have these days.

I do love glee though...

They're really cool.

And I love how they mix and redo all the songs..

They make me like song's that I despise.

Just because they sang it in a very different way.

Now??

Onlining to fill my time.

And updating my forever boring blog.

I wonder if anyone ever read my blog anyways.

But if there are readers out there.

Thanx for giving me a few of your minutes to read this blog.

I'm on my holiday.

And i'm going to make full use of it.

because after this.

It's hard work.

hard work.

seriously.

SPM is in six months. and I still have a lot to study.

Though I don't know why everytime I come back for the holidays.

I can't seem to bring myself to open any books.

It's just....

something I can't undo.

Trust me.

If you're a boarding school student.

You would know what I'm talking about

.hehehehe

AWESOME.

2011-06-03T21:54:00.000-07:00

I love rainbows nowadays. You guys know that right??

I always wanted one of these!

Mermaids. They're awesome.

2011-06-03T20:46:00.000-07:00

Beautiful. Hot. Vicious.

What more can you ask for?

Seriously. If I could, I so want to be one of the mermaids in the pirates. seriously. Who cares if the mermaids eat people?? You can't blame them...

People's meat are the most delicious kan...in actual fact.

Really...i wish to join them. hahaha

Did she just read my mind??

2011-06-01T02:22:00.000-07:00

I was reading Hajar's Blog and I came across this one post Hajar did titled "I wonder"

It was as if she was reading my mind! I was thinking about the same exact thing about my own crush!

I'm posting it here and Hajar...you don't mind if I made some changes do you?? Since we have different crushes right??? hehe....but most of the stuff you wrote....it s what i'm feeling right now as well...ehehe even the part where you said dearest my not-so-secret crush is like....eh sama gile ngan ak bai...hahahaha

Dearest my not-so-secret crush,

1. I wonder what's on your mind when I suddenly nudge you on Facebook and simply say 'hey, how is it going?' or 'yay, you are online!'. Are you annoyed? Will you get bored? What is on your mind when this particular event happens? Are you happy like me, who have always been looking forward to see you go online on Facebook, or am I just another girl who nudges you whenever you're online? (THIS IS SO TRUE!)

2. I wonder what you're thinking when my name appears on your phone screen. Do you get excited as I am? Do you hope that that text won't be the last one from me? Do you go, 'yes, she texts me!'or do you just act like nothing special happens, like, biasalah text kawan sendiri. What exactly are the things that are playing in your bloody mind, when it comes to me? I'd like to know, please. (THIS TOO.)

3. I wonder if you realize how flawless you are, just by standing there singing the National Anthem with one of your hands being tucked in your pocket. I wonder if you know how fascinated I am by those crooked, long fingers when we are reciting the Ikrars. I wonder if you know how your curly hair looks perfect from behind, shows how a simple Malay guy could stand out just by having the Malay curly hair. I wonder if you know that every assembly session, I was smiling and amazed by these little things you possessed.

4. I noticed you like sports. I wonder if you know that I've been there watching you playing tennis with your mates whenever after noon pr. I wonder if you know that I'm one the supporting, screaming girls (well, except for the fact that I don't scream). I wonder if you know it is your fine complexion that they're looking at, not at your bad moves. I wonder if I'm as noticeable as you are.

So you come to roll call punctually at 7.00 a.m. every day. You go down for recess slightly 5 minutes later than my friends and I do. You wear your superbly hot looking blazer for the official assembly, but on normal days, you couldn't care less about ethics as long as your school shirt is not stained by sambal or kuah after recess. You act like you're a cool gamer, but somehow I can see your noobness and your deepest insecurity is that you feel unattractive (while on the other hand, you are attractive) and sometimes that whatever you do people still won't be satisfied with your work even though you've tried your best in doing it.

I wonder if you are as observant as I am.
.
.
.
.
.
Of course not.
I have to wear short skirts with long legs, I have to be pretty, my skin has to be as white as Snow White, my teeth needs to be in a perfect row and my nose has to undergo some nose job, then only will you observe me. I have to act like some young tramps who don't give a shit about their future, I have to act stupid, I absolutely need to giggle pretentiously at your stupid jokes, then only will I get a piece of your attention. Kan?

I wonder how those bitches see you. Do you they see you the way I do? Of course not.

I love you Hajar. LOL.

What's Happening To Me?

2011-05-01T03:03:00.000-07:00

Ok. I don't know what's going on.

But I'm really starting to grow on selena.

Even her musics are super awesome to me nowadays.\

Seriously.

Even her relationship with Justin Bieber? I think they're the cutest thing ever now after I saw this super adorable gif. on tumblr. haha.

And these pics of her???

ADORABLE.

And this one is a favourite of mine.

Though I just found it a minute ago.

Hehe.

Someone I Hate. Someone I love.

2011-05-01T02:46:00.000-07:00

Ok this post is gonna bout tht guy.

So if you guys are not interested in listening to my emo wrants.

Please.

Feel Free To Leave.

So I've been a bit down lately beacuse of him. You know that song from Katy Perry? Hot 'n Cold? Well , yeah, now i know how people can relate to that song.

But maybe it's just me overreacting huh??/

Anyways...cupcakes are done.
Hope he likes it!!

It's not one of those ooh-la-la cupcakes.
But it's mine. ^^

I was wishing that my cupcakes would look like of one those pics below.
But i know that is beyond impossible. Haha
I barely even know how to cook.
Let Alone bake beautiful cupcakes.
Anyways.
Going back to Maktab today.
Bus At ten.
Kinda excited about going back.
Really.

^^

Baru je balik rumah. Lusa balik Maktab dah??? WHATTTT???

2011-04-29T03:30:00.000-07:00

Seriously.

If it wasn't for Malam Puteri. I wouldn't even think about going back home.

SERIOUSLY.

Since it's going to be only three days of holiday.

And If it wasn't for the cupcakes I want to make.

Ehehehe.

^^

2011-03-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

For all my readers, this would probably be my last post for now. I'm going back to my beloved prison this afternoon so there won't be another post till I get back. ^^

See Ya!

BFF CONTEST???

2011-03-16T21:26:00.000-07:00

"Show Me Your BFF Contest"

by: Nurulbadiah Lai

It's been a while since I enter this kind of contest.

Ok wait. Let me correct that statement.

I have NEVER entered this kind of contest. But since I have nothing better to do. Why not have a little fun kan??

Go to this blog for more detalil. :)

Blog NurulBadiah

This is me and MY BFF.

Ammera Hadi.

Dear Nurulbadiah Lai,

Ammera Hadi and Shamin Insyirah. That's us in the above pic. Ammera and I have been friends since form Three. I moved to Puncak Alam a few years ago and had to enroll in a new school. And she was the only one in the entire school who doesn't think I'm a b****. The first day I entered the class. I was sitiing in front of her. And she saw that I was holding my Twilight: New Moon Book. It was because of that book that we became really good friends now.

When we met. We were total opposites. She was more of the tomboy type and i was more of a girly girl. Since we've been friends for so long. I think we kinda injected some of our own personality to the other. I had to move to MRSMKT last year. But we still stay best friends till this day.

I believe she really is more than my BFF. She is my true friend. No one can understand me the way she does. And that's something that not many people can do.

She has this really easy-going character that I like. And even my mom likes her. I've sleepover her house more times than you could count. Her house is already like my second home now. I can go and leave whenever I want.

Ammera Hadi.

One of a kind.

One in a million.

And my best friend. ^^

We took that pic in IKEA. We were celebrating my bday that day. And we had nothing better to do. SO we decided to go to IKEA and make the place like our own home. LOL. Took pics everywhere in IKEA. hahaha. That was a fun day out. All the other pics is in my FB.

Mera, I love you to bits and I know you know that. ^^

And I know you love me too kan??? haha.

Tag :

Done.

Phew...

My Only Hope.

2011-03-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

A Sorrowful Song By Mandy Moore.

Sassy Hottie Cutie Hyoyeon!

2011-03-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

Aww So cute! lol you go Hyo!

hahahahaha! I love her!

I <3 THIS PIC!!!

Continuing...

2011-03-13T21:15:00.000-07:00

And continuing with the outing yesterday.

Ehehehe.

So after they found me wondering around like a crazy person who was trying to find a person who was trying to find me (ok tht was confusing)

We started walking again.

Iqbal said that he had to go back already. So he bade goodbye and started walking away. Balqis, Faiz and I was watching him. Kitorang tgk je dia jalan.

He really did looked like someone who was lost.

We couldn't help but laugh.

So we all decided to accompany him until he reached the exit.

Haha...Qbal you were so funny.

LOL.

But he didn't talk to me a lot.

I don't know.

I feel like there's this awkward thing between us.

Not in a good way though.

He talk to Balqis mostly. Haha.

So after we reached the centre court.

We let Iqbal walk by his own till the entrance.

We were still worried though.haha

Though there really was nothing to worry about.

Suddenly.

Mamat ni la....Buat panik je..

Faiz was like "EH?!! ALAMAK??!!"

Suddenly he ran after Qbal, sliding through people. All the by-passers were watching him. "Gile ke apa budak nih"

Balqis and I looked at each other then we started following him.

Full Of curiosity.

He came back bringing the bag that Iqbal bought just now.

"Knape ko bwk beg tu?"

"Ni beg ak la"

Laaa~ That's it???

You ran like some psycho person because of the bag???

*shook heads.

Hahahaha....

I was the last person to go back. hahaha...

Faiz acompanied me though....tggu smpai my mom dtg.

I told him he could go back first if he wants.

Tp ntah mamat tu.

Tibe2 jd gentleman.

Hahaha...

It was raining and it was already seven o'clock. So cam.

Mmg patut la dy balik dulu kan. Cos he was taking the commuter to PWTC.

But he insisted on waiting until my car comes.

Last2 nk balik..dy bgtau tiket bus xdop.

Luckily someone helped him.hahahha

But overall it was a fun day out.

Never expected to enjoy myself that much.

Cos usually when I go out I don't like it to be more than two people.

Cos then I won't really join the conversations they are having.

But it was fun.

hihi. ^^

I would so love to be that woman. Haha.

When Your Crush Says They Like You Too...

2011-03-13T08:10:00.000-07:00

Outside You Are Like

But Inside You Are Like

Then You Text Your Bestfriend

And They Are Like

And Then Your Crush Tries To Ask You Out Like This,

And You Are Like

And Then You Two Are On A Date And You Are Like,

Then Suddenly He Kisses You

And Says,

And You Are,

And Then You Go Home And You Are Like,

And Then You Wake Up And Realise It Was All A Dream.

Hua! Hua! Hua!

Credits To CYNTHIA!!!

A Day Out With Hazwani Balqis, Faiz Fahmi, and Shahrul Iqbal.

2011-03-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

We watched??!!! RANGO!!!!!

The movie was so cute. hahaha.

The plan was to meet up at twelve. I was a bit late. Balqis, Iqbal and Faiz had already arrived. I think they were a bit frustrated that I was late. And that's why they made a move and pegi makan dulu. hahaha

Sampai2 je. Faiz called, asking me to go to Oasis Food Court. I have no idea where the hell Oasis Food Court since I rarely go to Mid Valley. He did asked me when we were talking "ko tau x kat mane?"

Because I was too lazy to ask him and hear him talk...hahha...i just said. "Tau. Tggu ah, Kejap agi ak smpai."

When In fact, I have no idea where I'm suppose to go. So I asked around and finally, I found it! hahaha...

see? I can be independent.

I wasn't wearing my glasses so I couldn't find them at first, so I got out of the food court then entered back, found Balqis. Hehehe.

Beli Nasi Goreng Cili Padi and Milo Ice. Alaa~ Biase2 je. hahaha.

And then sat down with them. I thought it'd be awkward at first. I am close with Balqis. It was the two boys I was worried about. Since I don't really know them tht well.

But it turned out to be ok. They were really cool and fun to be around with. Iqbal was a bit off though today.

Something was wrong with him. I don't know what though. He was just a bit weird today. Haha.

Then after lunch. We went to the movies. The boys asked us what we want to watch. And I said Rango. I was just kidding at that time. I didn't know they would take it seriously.

And so they bought tickets for Rango.

Iqbal wasn't really into cartoons. So he was kind of...you know. ehehe

Pastu kitorang pun decide nak tukar.

So beratur la balik~ haha

tiba2 announcement.

Attention. The screening for Rango and Big Momma at 2 o'clock has sold out.

Faiz and I were queue-ing up masa tu.

Mmmg terkezut. hahahah

We looked at Qbal. He was kind of disappointed. But cam...what to do. Haha.

So at last tgk Rango. There was still ten minutes before the movie starts. So we decided to go for a walk first. The boys went into....hmm...forgot the name of the shop, Tp ada la....and Balqis and I jalan2 jauh lg.

And then suddenly...omo!....two o'clock sudah. haha.

So dgn rushingnya pegi cinema...

tgk2...yg ada kat situ....iqbal jee...hahha

Faiz ntah hilang ke mana...

So we had to wait for him..at first we wanted to go in first while the boys were buying their popcorns...but they were already done buying by the time I decide tht. So masuk.

We were so lucky because by the time we entered the hall. The movie was just about to start. Haha.

Faiz and Qbal sat at the back.While Balqis and I sat was in front.

The movie was nice I guess..But there were times I felt like falling asleep.

It was funny. But it wasn't THAT funny. Still...It was funny. LOL.

After the movie ended....Balqis and went to surau do our prayers.

I was waiting for Balqis to finish so I decided to walk around Jusco in front of the mosque. Bought some curly fries and Fried Octopus for my siblings. And then when I went back into the surau, Balqis wasn't there anymore! I got panicked. I couldn't call her because her phone was with me.

Suddenly Balqis' phone and my phone rang at the same time.

On Balqis' it was Qbal's name. And on mine was Faiz's. I didn't wanna answer either both of them cause then they would ask questions and i'd be too lazy to answer.haha...

So I ignored both of it. And start to search for balqis.

Little did I know tht Balqis was already with the guys.

So after half an hour of searching. I finally pick up Faiz's phone call.

And he told me tht Balqis was with them.

I turned around and there they were.

Haha....

Silly me huh???

Wait wait, The story hasn't ended yet. But i'll continue tmrw la k??

If I write a post that is too long.

Obviously people would be too lazy to read it.

Ehehe

Outing~

2011-03-12T16:45:00.000-08:00

Today going out with Balqis and Faiz who came all the way from Kemaman. Don't ask me how he did. But he did.

I don't know who else is coming. Probably Iqbal.

I will give you the full post tonight.

If I'm not lazy. Ehehhe.

My sis changed her blog layout. Again.

It's annoying

Makes me feel to change MY layout

When in truth,

I don't want to.

But I feel like I WANT to.

A Walk Through Memory Lane.

2011-03-11T17:45:00.000-08:00

Form 1(Innocent year) : The beginning of high school life. The beginning of my friendship with a few of my closest friends now. Tried out for prefect to improve my social skills. It did. By A LOT. hehe. I finally met the person whom I can proudly call one of my two best friends now. Nadia Zuraida. A sweet, adorable girl who had problem with her confidence level. Also the year where, for the first time in my life, I fell in love. He was the first guy I ever fell in love with. Adults may think "eleh dia ni...baru sekolah menengah ingat dy dah pernah rasa first love apalah" But I knew tht guy was my first love. Though I haven't seen him in two years. I saw him the other day and my heart was beating fast like crazy. I moved on from him...but idk why when I see him....my heart still does that weird thing, Anyways....enough bout him. Things didn't work out between us...we still stay friends though. Form 1 was also the year where I got socially active and really got out of my shell. The year where I was finally interested in the species we call men. hehe.

Form 2 (Hormone-running-wild year) : The year I finally became a senior. Well for afternoon session at least. ehehe....The year I got busy with choral speaking competitions and choir competitions. Also the year were I wasn't as immature as I should be and always was creating drama in the school. It got so bad that even all my friends were all sick and tired of me. I was in 2 Adil. One the best class I ever been in. It was just fun being around my classmates that year. The year where my mind was too stressed out because of having to move to another school at the end of the year. It's just really a sad time for me at tht time. I really hate going to a new school. I loveD my old school and I wanted to be with my friends. It was just hell. But 2008 was one of the best years I've had. So I don't have much to complain about.

Form 3 (PMR Year) : Aaaahhh PMR year. The year I've been dreading (not as much as SPM though). First day of school. I was dreading to go to school seriously I hated my new school It was just awful for me. Really. I was in 3 Tabah and this was the year I met another one of my best friend. Ammera Hadi. If it hadn't been for her. I don't think I could survive another year in that damn pithole of hell. But I did. YAY ME!. Also the year where Azalea and I weren't exactly in good terms with each other. Lol. When I think about it back, I laughed thinking how funny it was. Azalea and I fought for no strong reason. It was just mutual hate at that time. Don't worry, we patched up. Kan Aza Kan??? PMR came near. And finally it was time. I did pretty well I guess. Got seven A's and a B for geography. Don't laugh. You guys might think Geo is easy. Well, it ain't for me. I was never good at remembering places. So it wasn't really a shock to me that I got B for geo. ehehehe.

Form 4 (honeymoon year) : Hihihi. Before I start. I just wanna say this year is one of the best year of my life. Though you guys have heard it for so many times. I still wanna say it! But don't worry, this year isn't the same as last year. Anyways...so this was the year I finally entered MRSM Kuala Terengganu. One of the worst and awesome place ever. I was the third intake so of course I entered a bit late, thus missing the first awesome activity week...or so all my of friends said. Never mind that. So while waiting for my letter from mrsm, I stayed in my old school SMK Puncak Alam. They said everything happens for a reason, And now i know why didn't get mrsm earlier. If I did, I wouldn't have the time to patch up with Azalea. We become friends Putting everything behind us and made a new start. Ehehehe...Fast Forwars to April, The letter came. At first I really felt like not going because finaly. FINALLY. I was fitting in with everyone at school After a year of being an outcast. Suddenly kene pindah skolah again. It was just like when I was in SMKSJ. JUST as I was about to fit in with everybdy...I had to move. Sad case huh???? Anyways...back to MRSMKT. Yeah so the first day in a new school. As expected, always terrifying, As soon as I walked on the school ground. I knew I was in for something big. I just don't know whether it'd be good or bad. Just after a few days I knew that it was for a good thing. I realize how important doing your prayers is. I realize how coverinng yourself up is very important. Easy to say, it improves my spiritual side by a lot. So I'm really glad. After I entered MRSMKT, I don't really care much about being skinny or that pretty anymore. And when I go out with friends. I don't look at other people anymore and think to myself "omg they're so pretty and i'm like so ugly and stuffs." Instead. I let them look at me and realize how pretty I am. Doesn't matter if I'm a bit on the plus size, or that I don't have a so-pretty face.I still love how I look. Of course I would be lying If i said I never feel really ugly sometimes. Those times come by more than I could count, Sometimes it goes away and sometimes it stays for a couple of days.And the friends I've made! God I can't tell you how i cherish them. Not just the ones who are close to me, but the whole batch! I love them. The last day when I was in school. I felt really sad. Since I knew that Form 5 year wouldn't be the same as this year, since it'll be SPM year. This year. We had a whole block to ourselves. Next year we'll be separated into two different floors. Abbas, Battani, Biruni, Dinawari, Khindi will stay downstairs, and the other three class will be on the second floor. Not much fun. But hey, whatevs. It's the year I tried first hand in debate too. I didn't know debate could be so fun and nervewrecking at the same time. My Facebook has never been so active before this. But now...hahaha...IT's nice to have someone tegur you on facebook. Easy to say, I couldn't wait to come back the next year and spend my senior year with these people. Woo! Go KAIZEN!

And Now.

My last year in school.

It's been only three months since the start of school's first term

Already there's so much that I went through

Kem BTN was one of 'em.

Awesome Camp BTW!

hahahha.

SPM Year.

I hope.

That this year.

Would be epic.

Amin~

A Matter Of Life And Death.

2011-03-10T19:25:00.000-08:00

That's what SPM is for me nowadays.

Seriously.

My result for the standardized 1 exam wasn't one of my best.

And I freaking hate it.

This time.

I believe I don't have myself to blame.
I studied my ass of for this time around

And still.

I did really bad.

I guess just no "rezeki" huh?

I have a lot to do.

PRS stuff.

Homeworks.

Oh wait,

I guess tht's it.

haha

But still...

Like I said.

There's a lot that needs to be done before the school break is over.

Hmmmm.

I'm Home.

2011-03-10T07:53:00.000-08:00

Heh?? Besok Balik Dah? Seriously???/

2011-02-03T19:35:00.000-08:00

Omg. I'm going out today to go buy my reference books and food supplies. Thought of staying home today since I went out yesterday with Ammera Hadi. But kene jugak go out ari ni. Haihh..

Dah la besok nk balik maktab dah. cishh.

Anyways...went out with mera yesterday. Arrived at her house around 9.20. Her dad sent us to curve. I had pyramid in mind at first. but Curve's cool. Just that there's nothing much to explore.

Mera and I planned on going to paddington's at first but suddenly stopped at vivo. It was nice when we first came in since there was no one else there except the two of us.

Until a family of chinese came in. They had a three year old kid with them. And the baby wouldn't stop crying. seriously. we got really annoyed then.

But anyway...you have got to try the dessert at vivo. it's to die for! the volcanic chocolate. It just has the most amazing texture and taste! Hot n' Cold. hmmm...

Just like that chef in masterchef said. It's like sex in your mouth. SERIOUSLY.

A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed.

2010-12-29T08:16:00.000-08:00

"A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed"

Wow.

I never understood what it meant until I wrote it down as a title for my blog.

Lol.

I always thought to myself why a friend in need is a friend indeed.?

Doesn't it mean "kawan yg sebenar adalah kawan yg perlukan pertolongan kita"?

But now I understand.

IT's english. haha

So the way they write is different too rite??

A Friend in need meaning. Kawan yg ada Bile kita perlu mereka.

is a friend indeed meaning adalah kawan sebenar.

Betul x? Betul X?

hehehe.

I know I'm a bit slow.

But hey. Isn't everyone??

Ok that doesn't right.

Oh well.

Haha.

The Last Night.

2010-12-28T08:03:00.000-08:00

Sigh.

So it's my last night here at my home before I get back to MRSMKT.

Tomorrow we'll be on our way to Duta Vista.

And then straight to Kuala Terengganu.

Hmm...I wonder what kind of mischevious things I'll be up to in my senior year.

Probably the biggest year of my life so far.

I still haven't finish packing up my stuff.

I'll get to it later.

Eheheheh.

Another Year Has Gone By. Time To Close Another Chapter. And Open A New One.

2010-12-27T10:20:00.000-08:00

I Think...

2010 was a great year for me.

I couldn't have ask for a better year.

Though, it couldn't top the year of '08. It's still one of my best years.

MRSMKT...like I've said many times before.

IS one of the best and most important parts of my life.

I went through stress, heartaches, and a lot of other stuff that most teenagers don't go through at this stage of their lives.

OK maybe that was too dramatic.

But hey...anyone who knows me know how dramatic I can really be. Lol.

I'm still the drama queen that I always am.

I still love glamour and glits.

I still love my stillletos.

I still love fashion.

And I still love art.

I also found a few new things about myself.

I found out that I'm still not completely over my first love.

I found out that I think I may actually really like the guy that I'm having a crush on right now.

I found out that Ammera Hadi and Nadia Zuraida are my true friends.

I found out that I've grown more mature since I entered boarding school.

And the most important thing is.

I found out who I really am as a person.

I just wish HE could see this.

^^

2010-12-26T00:06:00.000-08:00

It seems like anyone who goes to boarding schools are dreading the day that they have to go back to go their second home.

Me??

Well...used to...

Now??

Not so much.

I'm kinda excited to go back actually. For Some Reason.

Seriously.

But there's definitely some things I'm gonna miss at home though.

The delicious food.

Being Able to wake up late.

The KOREAN PROGRAMMES!

Baaahhh...

But I can't wait to start SPM and get it over with.

Nowadays...I kept thinking about after SPM.

Surprisingly not SPM.

Firstly because well...

I'm about to begin a new chapter in my life.

The chapter or "School Years" is about to end.

What am I gonna think about after SPM finishes, since I don't need to be thinking about going back to school next year or new exercise books or new school uniforms or new school shoes.

I wonder what will fill up my mind on those days.

Probably scholarships interviews.

Getting a job during the holidays.

hehehhe

What I can do with my job salary!

WOO!!

I am so gonna buy new shoes, new bags, new clothes, new everything!

MUAHAHHA...

But that's like ages in the future.

Now I DO have to think about going back to school.

New school uniforms.

New school shoes.

New school Bags!

New school shoes!

New exercise books...

Things to sort out.

2010-12-24T07:15:00.000-08:00

So I've just got a few days left before I head back to school.

I need to sort somethings out.

First off. I need to get a start on cleaning my room.

Seriously.

The room need to be at least look decent before i leave it for another two months.

Hmm...Need to pack my books and stuff.

We're staying at Duta Vista on the 29th...

And then 30th off to Terengganu.

Will be staying a night at Riyaz Hotel.

So i'll be officially arriving at MRSMKT on the 31st.

Hey, late a day is nothing ritee???

To be honest. I don't miss my school.

Not even one bit.

Seriously, I dreaded SPM year.

Simply because it's the most important year of my life.

But sooner or later I'm gonna have to deal with it rite???

About the guy.

Well. I don't think anything is going to happen between us.

So Imma just let it be.

It'd be better if we just stay friends kan???

He doesn't....

He NEVER show any interest in me and so I won't give myself hope that he will.

Baaa...So Totally emo-ing rite now

Well...my life is long.

There are still other fishes in the whole wide entire ocean...

Kan? Kan? Kan?

I love them.

They are so WAY WAY better than any k-pop artist and any kpop lovers know it.

I just wish it was the five of them instead of just three.

T.T

It's Because I Don't Have Tumblr.

2010-12-23T10:15:00.000-08:00

Ok. So I don't have tumblr.

But I love posting pics. Just not often laaa.

Baik I letak sini je kan??? hehee

MRSMKT.

2010-12-23T09:47:00.000-08:00

So It's been almost a year since I entered MRSMKT.

And it's been two months since I left my beloved school for the school holidays.

When I was leaving the school, I felt like I didn't want to. Seriously.

I missed it for a couple of days when I was at home.

But now that I'm really I'm going back to that prison.

I SO DON'T WANT TO.

T.T

WAAAAAAAA~~!!!!!

Seriously.

Baaahhh...Time To Go Hit The Books Again.

2010-12-22T11:17:00.000-08:00

A Little On The Plus Side,

2010-12-20T10:20:00.000-08:00

Since I was a little kid.

My body was never the skinny and slender type.

Nor Curvy.

Nor Voluptuous.

I was ALWAYS on the plus side.

And that's where my self-insecurity began.

And It just kept increasing since I entered the high school scene.

Simple because The people around me...and the friends I hang around me are super pretty,

Everywhere I go with them...the guys would go after them like some crazy maniacs.

And I would be left behind.

Guys always sees me as a this cool girl that they can be friends with.

And that's just the problem. They only see me as a Friend.

They never see me as a girl.

You knw what I mean??

And I wan't that to stop.

Now.

I want the guy that I like see me as something else than just a pal.

Than just a friend.

See me as who I truly am.

Please.

See me as girl.

Innocent Candy Lover

2010-12-19T13:29:00.001-08:00

www.dreamself.me

The Chronicles Of Narnia : The Voyage Of The Dawn Treader

2010-12-19T06:59:00.000-08:00

Well. It was ok. It didn't really live up to my expectations.

It didn't give that "ummphh" that the first two movie did.

Honestly I think that The second movie was the best one out of all three of them.

The Actions. The Excitement. The humor. The Romance. The Mystery. The "ummphh" essence. THE HOT SHOTS. hehe.

It was all there in one movie.

And you knw. I really like all Narnia ending songs.

They give me this nostalgic feeling.

Somehow like a magical feeling.

Like anything can happen.

But it usually goes away after the song stopped.

McDonald's Prosperity Burger are the best!

Haha. OK. That was so random.

And This is something I just read at dbsknights and it got me all teared up.

With regard to the other members releasing a new album and promoting as Dong Bang Shin Ki this coming January, JYJ said 'Obviously we want them to be successful in their activities, but the name 'Dong Bang Shin Ki' only has meaning when all 5 of us are present. On those grounds, it is somewhat regretful. Our group is named 'JYJ' and we do not have a leader; we feel that our separation is merely the result of our current situation. One day, we will be together again.'

omg....I'm tearing up all over again. Haha.

2010-12-17T21:48:00.003-08:00

I Found this thing on sab's blog. And it was just the cutest thing ever! ahahah...So being the fashion victim myself. I had to try this thing. And so I did. I'll update my dreamself from time to time. ehhe...
But since this one is my first dreamself, I wanted to make it something that resembles me. Which is the colour pink. Hence the pink colours.
First Theme : Pink Cutie. ^^

www.dreamself.me

100 truths. (Got it from Facebook. ^^) Kalau Rajin. Then You Read laaa..

2010-12-17T06:24:00.000-08:00

1. Last beverage = ice cream soda

2. Last Phone Call = mama

3. Last text message= Nadia Zuraida

4. Last song you listened to = Hoot by Snsd

5. Last time you cried= I Have No Idea.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice = no

7. Been cheated on = no

8. Kissed someone & regretted it = No

9. Lost someone special = yes

10. Been depressed = yes

11. Been drunk and threw up= no

THREE FAVORITE FOODS:

12. Ireland Fried Potatoes.

13. rendang daging nenek.

14. Dark Chocolate

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends = yes

16. Fallen out of love = yes

17. Laughed until you cried = yes

18. Met someone who changed you = yes

19. Found out who your true friends were = no

20. Found out someone was talking about you = yes

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? = no

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?= i would say abot six hundred???

23. How many kids do you want to have = i have no idea

24. Do you have any pets? = yes.

25. Do you want to change your name = no.

26. What did you do for your last birthday = well....celebrated it ala Paris style. ^^

27. What time did you wake up today = aha. idk. around 11.30??

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = watching Child's Play. ahahhaa

39. Zodiac sign? = saggitarius.

40. Do you have a crush on someone? = yes.

41. Primary School = sk sri subang jaya. one and only (:

42. Middle School = smk subang jaya, smk puncak alam, mrsm kuala terengganu.

43. Colleges = FIT. (I hope SO!!)

44. Hair color = Black

45. Long or short = well...not long, but not short either, ehehe...

46. Height = 162 cm

47. Found a new pet peeve? = Yes. I hate it when someone acts like a KNOW-IT-ALL.

48. What do you like about yourself? = That I'm one of a kind. ^^

49. Piercings? = ears. Used to though. It's completely gone now since I rarely put on any earrings.

50. Tattoos? = nope.

51. Righty or lefty?= Righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery? = none

53. First piercing? = ears

54. First best friend? = Hmm...I think her name was Azyan. Back when I was in Standard 1. ahahha. Then I never see her again after that year.

56. First vacation? = Port Dickson I think??

RIGHT NOW:

57. Sleeping? = no one. hahahaha

58. On the Phone? = no

59. Eating? = no

60. Drinking? = no

61. I'm about to?= update my blog background! ehehehe

62. Listening to?= What's on tv. Ahhha....

63. Waiting for? = Tomorrow to come!

64. Want kids? = Right now? Absolutely not.

65. Get Married? = Not in my plans right now or any in the near future.

66. Career? = It has to involve fashion. And writing. ^^ And meeting Andre Leon Talley ^^

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = eyes.

68. Hugs or kisses = hugs

69. Shorter or taller = taller

70. Older or Younger = younger

71.Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = arms

73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive.

74. Hook-up or relationship? = relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Trouble maker.

76. Kissed a stranger? = yeah. cute babies!

77. Drank hard liquor = nope.

78. Lost glasses/contacts = yeah.. lotsa times

79. Danced in the rain = yup

80. Broken someone's heart = nak break whose heart huahua

81. Had your own heart broken = more times than I can count.

82. Won a bet = I don't like bets.

83. Turned someone down = never, really

84. Cried when someone died = no..

85. Fallen for a friend? = yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

87. Miracles = yes

88. Love at first sight = nope. And never ever wil.

89. Heaven = yes

90. Santa Claus = no

91. Kiss on the first date? = no

92. Angels = yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY!

93. Done something terribly embarrassing? = haha yes

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time? = yes

95. Did you sing today? = yes

96. Ever cheated on somebody? = No

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = The start of my high school life. 3 January 2007. Sigh. Good times.

98. Do you like bananas? = sometimes

99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = yes

100. Posting this as 100 truths?= yes. And I added a little bit at the back. ehehhee

ZzzZz...

2010-12-15T09:48:00.001-08:00

Time to sleep people yo! I'm very tired. I'll update bout da prefect dinner tmrw. Haha. Had so much fun. Too bad farah wasn't there. Haha. Would love to see her again after TWO WHOLE YEARS! but xpe la. We'll still hav chance to see each other again kan? ^^

It Doesn't Matter Anymore.

2010-12-14T07:21:00.000-08:00

Ok. Lol.

First of all don't ask me (not like you can anyway) what is up with the title, I don't know why, I just feel like putting that up as a title. Haha.

Soo...lemme tell you what I've been up today and yesterday. I went to mera's house yesterday and slept over, we had so much fun doing...well...basically nothing.Haha. But it was good catchin up with her and got the chance to spend time with her. she's going to Manila for twelve days. So yesterday was probably our last meeting-up for this year. I'm gonna miss you mera! Finally got home today.

So I FINALLY got my approval stamp from my parents to go to the prefects' dinner. I'm going to Nadia's house tomorrow and sleepover there for the night. We're going to the dinner together. Yaayy! It's about time! Finally I can spend some time with my other best friend. hehe. Can't wait to see you nadia!.

The prefect dinner will be held at Grand Dorsett. So. Can't wait to go! I can meet up with all my smksj friends again. After a year. hahahaa.

Ok now i'm gonna go and update my blog background. Seeya folks!

Semangat Nak Update Blog Nihhhh

2010-12-11T10:12:00.000-08:00

I'm so hyped up to update my blog rite now.

But to be honest.

I have nothing to be update about.

hehe.

Going to Ammera's House soon. Don't know what crazy stuff we'll be up to then. Haha.

I think about him 24/7 now. And everytime I do. My heart skipped just a little bit faster. lol. I sound really cheesy don't I?

Ok ok I'm gonna stop talking about him already. haha. Kalau talk about boys everytime...even the readers would get muaaakkkk...hahha....

seriously. your blog is about telling how you feel at the moment and share your trips and experiences with everyone. Not a place to just talk about your boy toys ok. klau mcm tu then baik u pggl your blog *tempat i talk about boys* ishhh

SMKSJ Prefect Annual Dinner 2010.

2010-12-10T07:05:00.000-08:00

So the annual dinner is in a few days.

I Don't Know whethere I'm going or not.

I wanna go but I still haven't got the approval stamp from my parents so we''l see how it goes.

I do really wanna go though. I mean. I haven't seen my SJ friends in like ages. And this dinner are just one of those rare times where I can meet them again and spend time with them. So I really have to go.

Other than that I don't think there's anything else to write about. My life is still same old same old. hehe.

Oh yeah. I did talk to HIM a few days ago. It was fun. Relaxed and fun. *giggles*

As expected. His pointer was well above 3.5. But like I said. I've expected that already.

And congrats to him I shall say. He worked hard for it and he got what he deserved.

Still I can't help but feel embarassed. My pointer sucked man.

He lied to me so that he could just get me to tell my pointer. Chehhhh...And I fell right into the trap. I'm so gullible aren't I? Uggghhhhhh!!!